At first glance, I appear to be the same size and stature as I've been for many years (especially for those who see me day to day). Granted, in my youth, I've seen nearly 200 pounds, but for the better part of 12 years, I've kept myself 50-60 pounds lighter. The scale hasn't changed but my level of 'fit'ness has! I've gotten so out of shape recently and the contrast of where I am to where I've been really hurts my pride ... or is it my ego?
I've heard people say "I can't go to the gym because I don't look good in gym clothes." Ironic isn't it? I found some really awesome gym clothes so I'm a-okay there, but I can certainly relate to feeling less than enthusiastic about beginning a journey that will obviously become easier once I 'get there.'
As a Holistic Health and Nutrition Coach, I come across people who feel similarly in that they want to 'get there' ... to wherever it is easier ... to wherever they will feel better ... to a lighter weight ... to being symptom-free ... etc. And what do I say to them?
A year from now, you will wish you had started today.
Becoming so insanely busy with business and life that I stopped:
*moving and getting fit
*meditating and finding center
*eating variety of nutrients
*making home-made raw, vegan masterpieces
*playing in nature
*relaxing at home
So I have arrived at a place where:
*My body feels less flexible, capable and fit.
*My smile takes longer to find in the morning.
*My 'happy' is a little less loud.
So ... I begin another cycle of practice and I'll share my journey with you on my blog. Would you start with me? Do your own journey and pursue your own goals but start today. Do anything you've been meaning to do ... exercise, eat better, read more, laugh louder, mow the lawn before it looks like a forest... whatever it is. A year from now, you will wish you had! (particularly the lawn forest)
In my childhood, I tried to become strong. As a broken and battered obese child, strength seemed deified, and those who possessed it appeared magical in their abilities.
We all sought to build strength, but almost everyone else
lay much farther down the road than I, so their plight
remained unseen to me until decades later. I didn't realize for years that those who were born with genetic advantage, eventually stumbled under the erroneous fixation on "building strength." There are two forces in the world: driving forces, and restrictive forces... but we're so often only taught the former. We are told to step on the accelerator, despite the emergency brake being fully engaged. Tires smoking, engine seizing, brakes burning, lubrication evaporating, going nowhere fast, if you attempt to build strength without disengaging the emergency brake, you break down. Though
it happened to me immediately due to my congenital and nutritional deficiencies, it eventually happened to almost all of those "early bloomers" from my childhood as well.
I had no choice but to focus on removing my weakness, rather than building strength. But now, decades later, that realization helps so many others that the hardships of my youth feel invested wisely. There were two types of events (and people) I experienced in life: those that build you up and those that tear you down. In the end, I've come to be grateful for them both, and now realize
that in being forced to remove my weaknesses, I was left with an unlimited ability to build my strengths.
When you're feeling frustrated, overwhelmed, remember that strong is what happens when you run out of weak. Take off the brakes, and fly.